I am a fujoshi, or slasher-maniac. its a part of me that ppl dont understand. it ruins me for life but i can't find myself regretting it (yet). i love and crave everything about male and male romantic relationship. its sick i know. looking back, i grew up as a normal girl.. well, as normal as a girl with excessive emotions can get. By excessive i mean that i feel strongly for something or someone. so when i like something, i will love it obsessively. and if i hate something, i dont hesitate to destroy it.
The story began when i was first introduced to manga, japan comic books. the first manga i read and loved was candy-candy. A suprissingly normal manga. then i stumbled upon an interesting manga about 2 boys (i forget the title) who, if i remember correctly, childhood bestfriends. one of them is adorably absent-minded, forgetful, and clumsy. he can't even remember what he's done the day before. the bestfriend think that he was mistreated by his mother. because the mother is a bit mysterious. but it turns out that that was not the case. this boy is some kind of physic or something and he can kill just by looking (thats pretty neat!) and he has acute-anger-management-problem that he killed his own dad because the dad used to beat his mother. thats why the mother try to wipe the boy's memories every day to avoid his anger-problem -which is why he is so forgetful-, if he forget, he cant get angry right? but this revelation makes the boy gets angry even more and the mother died. without a mother, the boy becomes dependant of his bestfriend. he even blew a plane up and killed the entire passenger including his bestfriend's parents just because he's jealous of them. knowing what his bestfriend capable of and then losing his parents, the best friend can only hugs the boy and say that he's not going everywhere. and that.... was the first time i saw two men hugging, and feeling something. i couldnt let go of that images for days.
Haha, that was kinda silly. i don't even know what has gotten into me. after that, i always looked for shounen ai manga (manga about man/man relationship) and it is HARD! of course, why would a publisher want to translate and published that kind of story?. at that time, i was still in my stupid 13 year-old self, i didn't know that online manga scan was exist. then, my focus was moved elsewhere. namely Japanese Rock Band or i prefer visual kei band. i couldnt resist pretty boy singing rock and hardcore music. plus, they like to give their fans some fan services like kissing and rubbing each other.
All that strangness was escalated when i was introduced of "slash story". slash is an english term (slang?) for man/man relationship. there were an overwhelming amount of that kind of story in internet. they are in english. and you know what? when i was in high school, i was very bad in English. i didn't even know the differences between do and does. but these stories kinda forced me to know the meaning of the story, and that gradually made me to be so much improved in english vocabulary. ok, back on track.
after consuming so many slash stories, i found a story that would make me into what they called as Fandom. a Harry Potter fanfiction. years before, i was a Harry Potter Novel Maniac. but never did i thought that it will be slashy. i was still innocent at that time, mind you. so this this fanfiction is about Harry and Draco slash. strange, they are arch enemies, but it made me completely intrigued. and what a story! i was blown away. aagain i forget the title of the story, but my deep gratitude goes without saying. From there needless to say, i was shoved deep into fanfiction world and fandom.. it has been many years since then.. about 8 years? wow..
now i have a lot of fav fandoms and OTPs both canon and fanon. i've read thousands fics from ficlet until novel-length. i mastered a lot of fanfiction terms that ordinary ppl will see them as alien words.
There are many fanfics written in my mother language, but i dont like it. to me fanfic is in english. thats why i made my fanfic in english. yep, i have my own fanfiction *g* (no matter how horrible is the words). haha i admit im not good at writing, but in reading im an expert. eventhough i cant say that i have a good command in english, i perfectly know when the writing is good or plainly suck. it also goes for published novels. well yeah i also read actual novels (i mean not novel-length fics), dont act so surprised.
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