Not to wake

This lucidity of mine
slowly scatters my carefuly built mind
makes them into remains
pulls hard to all the already broken reins

rush as far as you like
won't change that it's still a ten-mile hike
an iron spike is all you have
as you've always known that it's all just a naff

i want to break the reality
dissolve it until blurry

believe me it's not peace that you're looking for
but pain
the pain that will make you stay grounded
that will make you more alive even in your death

i am stranded
i can only see red
i am asking the answer of my own
i believe i am drown

don't be silly
water is not for burrying a body
water will not drown you
water will get rid of you

first day of 2015 eh?

So.. how is it going, you ask?
last year was nice to me, i think..
terrible mistakes i made, had a way to find its solution.
all the worries settled comfortably into hope.

i still can feel the overwhelming rope.
but that's okay, i'm getting the hang of it.

i dont expect much for this year.
but just try to stop my prayer.

this life that i've been chosen to live.
i waste my worth by being too naive.
i always scream to be saved.
but being an ignorant self, its inevitable to be caved.

i'm forgetful of being thankful.
always say that something really nice in my life is something that i was deprived.
ungrateful of me.
maybe if that's not me, it won't be too hard to favor me.

and then i wish to be more mature to know myself.
to admit the scars and the bruises from my own fangs.
let us see for this year yeah?

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the origin of love

so, IMO, Lucifer's greatest mistake is that he loves God too much. He was blinded of human worth because of his jealousy and arrogance. Michael's love is as strong, but different in a way. He loves God with his blind obidience. He takes what is given and gives what is asked.

Love is powerful. it can shove you deep down the pit. it can save you from the perdition.

i see

i dreamed of the future
i saw a reflexion in the mirror
i weep for the fool

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sky i miss the old you

hey,
how are you today?
i hope you're ok.
what's the game you play?
can you please stop it right away?
if its my fault please let me pay.
you didn't even let me try.
you just left without goodbye.
do you care if i cry?
if it's a nay just tell me why.
then i'll take out my left eye.
to keep the sadness at bay.
because this eye which cannot lie,
will be better if it doesn't mourn you, sky

(why did you change? what's your game? i don't recognize the new you, i miss the old you)

bleak hope

vain escape mould into the continuity.
leave on the nakedness to seal the misery.
could you pretend that returning darkness reward enough for peace?
that you are not sinking into the anguish?
the perfect dream soon dissolve into a soiled air you're fool enough to breath in.
but still it's haunting in your closed eyes.
ghost to the mind that no longer sane.
makes you crawl when you cannot run.
overwhelms you with the glimmer of the sun.
until you decided to grasp it.
thus begins the vicious circle.

tapping the nose

Some days are simply not the day
When faith begins to fray
When words led you astray
The doom song is at play

suffocated by the present
haunted by the past,
terrified of the future.
Swaying with the steps that always waver.

Because safety is only a myth
And the walls are moving closer.
Racing with the scythe
Yet no exit door for the quitter.

but there's no sense in crying for every lost throne.
Closed heart will not giving back the crown
No mistake in leaving the glory to the untold
Then see that there's always a hand to hold

to stop doesn't mean to freeze.
no reason not to storm in and chase the wind out
No, we're not as big as the great sun.
but we're not as tiny as we think we are.


about 'hope' is justified.
but 'believing' is to survive.
breath.. breath.. the inhales and the exhales are sign that we're alive.
so what do you say?

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