2025!!

I've decided to make this blog more useful by turning it into my portfolio. I'll be sharing all of my work here. Plus, my New Year's resolution is to keep creating and, hopefully, finally find what I've been searching for.

Cheers

Adarqiz/Errisona

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How could he stop now? He has sins to atone for. He has a sister he needs to apologize to in the after life. This is the way to go, to burn with the man who created this misery. 

Day 4 and 5

Ugh I failed yesterday

Day 4

 James Blunt - Someone Singing Along

This song is a reminder to me that everybody doesn't always think like me (I wonder if anyone does, actually) and that's FINE. And it's also FINE for me to think like me. It is what it is, what matters is what you are (I am) going to do about it.

Day 5

Vibha Saraf - Gupchup

The newest member of my playlist. It's such a cute little song! 

 

Day 3

Miyavi - Senor Senora Senorita

Miyavi's songs always remind me of mbak ci, my big sister from another mother. In my Japan Rock craze I showed her all my fav vkei bands and musicians. She patiently listened to my ramblings, seemingly genuinely interested despite never knowing music much. She paid special attention to MYV and since then I showed her all stuff about him. As I got older, I realized that perhaps it was just to indulge me,  to make me happy. And that's one of the greatest things someone's ever done to me. She would have been a good mother. I always miss you mbak ci. I have so many stories to tell you.. 

Day 1 and 2

Since I'm gonna deal with deadlines instead of workdays, this challenge will be good for me to keep being aware of the dates. 😁

A bit late but here we go,

Day 1

Mika - Elle Me Dit

Despite not memorizing the lyrics (it's in French, how can I?), this song's always stuck in my head even after other songs are played. The "danse danse" part gets me everytiem.

Day 2

Twenty One Pilots - Message Man

Pure joy, being introduced to this band. Since I love rhymes, I always fond of rap, but sometimes, if the mood strikes, rap songs are too much for mellow me. TØP has managed to polish the hard edge of rap songs. Plus I like songs that either have good story or good mystery in the lyrics. Songs that can envoke emotions. TØP has them too. Along with the grow of the band, this "whatever" genre seemed to grow too. Lucky me.

Music to me

If you play me a song and tell me it's beautiful then i'd most likely to agree. If I play you a song and tell you it's really great, I don't blame you to either stay or flee. Oh, and don't ask me about a particular song, I'll listen to it thrice then write you an essay. My taste in music is like a clay, shaped in any way. 65% of my phone battery is spent on spotify. I have various genre, language, and mood playlists on standby.  I may not like every songs, but I listen and listen until i relent, eventually. I may not know every songs but I believe there's always beauty in every melody.

Living on anaesthetic.

Living on anaesthetic.
No one seems to get it.
Losing the feeling on the fingertips yet cold seeps through, hot burns through.
Living on anaesthetic
Seems too much to take in.
But the mind is big enough for another universe.
Living on anaesthetic.
Not to be fixed.
To live a little safer.
-Adqz
Inspired from the song Anaesthetic by Thompston

Always

He is running to the never-end of the ring of life.
Winding in and winding out for a chance to survive.
Wavering in a crunching numbers of grief.
Cowering behind the so called belief.

Always.

But he never gets tired of this kind of life.
He doesn't leave off and live with a wife.
He takes pleasure from every single new leaf.
He waits for his very own magical relief.

Always.

-Adqz

A name and a comrade

I used to run at the sight of the sun. I moved back down, made no mistake about it. I merely bowed when my mind pulled me by the head and jerked me around. I used to wake up at the whitest of the day, already wishing for the next day. I wondered, I wandered to an impossible future. I used to despise regret. I found a solution in forgetfulness, a solace in blissful unawareness. I used to write and delete. I bailed like no one business. I used to over process everything, to be overthinking, that it came out nothing. Nothing comes out from nothing. But something did come through though. Something that is as simple as a name and a comrade. Somehow everything got easier after that.

Because a deadline is not dead enough - A New Year Resolution

I have this.. urge.. to post something (anything) every time I have a deadline approaching (fast). I've already exhausted all of my social media accounts by posting pictures, words, sentences which most of them, I'm sure, did not make sense.

It's a procrastination, yeah I know. What I don't know is, why do I keep doing it when I painfully aware that if I don't stop (like, right now) the work cannot be done by itself and the deadline is getting closer (fast). It does not affect my work though (I assure you, o my dear clients), I have this superpower that makes me (along with my precious brain) stop sleeping (at all) for two days straight, so, yeah.

It's just.. apparently, this procrastination thingy is not healthy. People are starting to notice my black circles and a sudden paleness of a face. So, Even though I'm not known for my healthy lifestyle, I'll make this as my new year resolution to stop procrastinating. There.. you have it.

The High Warlock's Magic - Magnus Bane

Magnus Bane is my Favorite character from Shadowhunters TV show represented by the talented actor Harry Shum Jr. And.. yes, I'm obsessed with his hands.

the world is battlefield

whatever game you play today,
it's still better than an outright lie.
roleplaying all the way
filtering whatever you say
The 'truth' is just like a coward shouting a battle cry.
loud, but shaky at best.
the unseen grey is not supposed to be black nor white
if they refuse to see the third side
there is no point to decide
but don't you get tired of them all?
don't you see the inevitable fall?
hiding your true self
shoving it deep on the very back of the shelf
don't you thing it's sad?

Share FJY love departure.mp3 - 9 MB

Share FJY love departure.mp3 - 9 MB

this song will accompany me for the whole week to remind me that, in the middle of the soon to be hectic week, i still have something to smile for.

my beaus

my first hardcore favorite singer would be a japanese singer Gackt, i was obsessed then. his Prince persona and his voice are what i liked best. Without being able to move on from Gackt i grew a love for Alexander Rybak, The winner of 2009 Eurovision. He has strong voice character and very sweet nature. You can tell he's a nice person only by looking at his smile.

I knew Enrique Iglesias when i was in Junior High, i knew him as Julio Iglesias' son, my mum's fav man. i liked him then, but i was just realized how alluring his voice was until a few years ago. and what a man he had grown into. i've been addicted ever since.

I don't really remember when i began to know a singer named Mika. I just know that i love him. The voice and the person. The good and the fault. His songs make my life a little better

The last person (but not least!) would be Nate Ruess. The song 'we are young' was what brought me in. He sings in his honest voice. the voice that pierce.

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redemption

life as i see it, lost in the crowd of confusions
words can throw a court in turmoil of thousands
explosions acted out of the new years
safety is no more than the agreement of the peers

Have you seen the news?

Human is a kingdom of species

fetch the death
waif of the life
it is not a despair nor surender
i'm not imagining salvation
because believe me not, it is your smile that can mend what have been broken
help me not to stray from the atonement
only in the the blur of the time
the praise in all the syllables that are rhyme
look how devoted i am already.
how fated you are to me
illusions are just a myth
even in my most delusional mind

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humans are complicated

Humans are weird, feeling lost when they don't want to belong. Chasing dreams while letting the reality go. I told you, they are weird.

No hate

Equality: The state of being equal, especially in status, rights, and opportunities. (www.oxforddictionaries.com/definition/english/equality)

Equality doesn't require much. It doesn't even need physical means to make it happen. So why does it take a lot from us -with hard, and tiring processes we have to endure- to be able to achieve this our biggest dream, equality.
Such a simple word really, 'equal'. People seem to forget that we are created as the same creature. There are no creatures called 'blacks', 'fags', or  'Muslims'. We are human (in case you're still wondering), human whose heart full of hatred.
Hate is born from the inability to understand. People hate things that they don't understand. But did you hate fireflies because you don't know what makes them light up? No, you got curious instead, then perhaps you look closer, trying to understand. So why those haters and bygots won't do the same? Do they kill the fireflies? Cruelly snuff out their lights, too consumed by their hatred to see how beautiful those fireflies dance under the moonlight.
Hatred hurts people. Even a word of hatred can tear a heart, or worse, kill. Doesn't matter how much they act strong or indifference, the feeling of being unwanted is worse than a killing blow. Why do you have to show your disagreements, your disrespect, your opinion to everyone? do you think it's important? your opinion? who are you?. Every people have heart that can feel and brain that can think. If you insult someone, think how'd you feel if you are in their shoes and someone hurdle you with the same insult? How many more people were and will be snuffed out? 

jumnicial

i thought i am a very open-minded person. im proud of my ignorance of stereotype, my acceptance of differences. but after seeing this serial, all those beliefs was scattered into little pieces. i find myself still tied to conservative ways. my way of seeing the world is not completely crooked and i regret this idiocy.

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good bye

the imminent death
come through the alley
bringing me the hearth
burns the rotten me

many roads to die
yearn the merciful
a painless goodbye
revert back to null

can share me gallows
can give me the pills
the looming shadows
they're close to kill

either one or those
slashed heart still hurt most
dragging pain of those
wish death the foremost

the set is likely
there will come the end
forget so readily
unable to stand

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Us Against The World

If its us against the world, would u take my hand or run to the other side?
If its us against the world, would you take my hand or blame me for the wrong ride?
If its us against the world, would you take my hand or let me be swallowed in the tide?

A misplaced thrust, what an unfortune

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